Friends, it has been a very difficult morning. As you know, my husband has been looking for a job after Congress' lack of action on a budget lost him two offers. In this economy, we all know it is hard to find anything. When looking in government.....well, let's not even talk about that!
I know God is in control. I know that He has something wonderful planned for us. I know that as long as He is with us we are extremely blessed. But my goodness, has waiting been hard! I keep reminding myself to wait upon the Lord, wait on His Will, and not to wait on the event (Zane getting a job). Somehow, no matter how much I tell myself to wait on God, waiting is still so difficult. I've found myself unbelievably stressed today as Zane is interviewing for an agency located in Raleigh, with offices in other states as well. I can't eat--not sure if the nausea is from awaiting word from Zane on how the interview went, or if it is the baby letting me enjoy more morning sickness. My stomach is in knots. If I think too much about it I feel light headed. And why? Why all of this? I KNOW that God is in control, and if this is not where He wants Zane, then it is not where we want to be.
We want to be wherever God can and will use us. We want to be used by Him, for His Kingdom, no matter what work environment we are placed in. Oh but friends....wanting those things are so twisted with wanting the wait to be over that I am a mess. Zane has been in his interview for over 3 hours now and has another 1/2 hour to go.... Please pray for both of us in this time. That God, in His grace, will help us to wait upon Him. To lean on Him. To rest in Him. And while we wait, to see His blessings surrounding us, knowing that where we are right now in this journey is exactly where God wants us to be.
Have a beautiful day. May you find joy and rest in our Father!