Friday, June 10, 2011

Lullaby #3

I do not think it is any surprise at all that this will be a song I sing to my baby as a lullaby.  Of course this is how I feel!  I want my baby to never hold itself back from the beauty God created in this world.  May my child always be able to see this world through His eyes though, and not through dim, blurry vision. 

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
Get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance.  I hope you dance, I hope you dance.
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance (after all, the way that leads to Life is narrow and hard)
Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking
Loving might be a mistake but it's worth making
Don't let some hellbent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance, I hope you dance.  I hope you dance, I hope you dance.

Dance, Baby Seals, Dance. 

Monday, June 6, 2011

Waiting Still

Friends, it has been a very difficult morning.  As you know, my husband has been looking for a job after Congress' lack of action on a budget lost him two offers.  In this economy, we all know it is hard to find anything.  When looking in government.....well, let's not even talk about that!

I know God is in control.  I know that He has something wonderful planned for us.  I know that as long as He is with us we are extremely blessed.  But my goodness, has waiting been hard!  I keep reminding myself to wait upon the Lord, wait on His Will, and not to wait on the event (Zane getting a job).  Somehow, no matter how much I tell myself to wait on God, waiting is still so difficult.  I've found myself unbelievably stressed today as Zane is interviewing for an agency located in Raleigh, with offices in other states as well.  I can't eat--not sure if the nausea is from awaiting word from Zane on how the interview went, or if it is the baby letting me enjoy more morning sickness.  My stomach is in knots.  If I think too much about it I feel light headed.  And why?  Why all of this?  I KNOW that God is in control, and if this is not where He wants Zane, then it is not where we want to be. 

We want to be wherever God can and will use us.  We want to be used by Him, for His Kingdom, no matter what work environment we are placed in.  Oh but friends....wanting those things are so twisted with wanting the wait to be over that I am a mess.  Zane has been in his interview for over 3 hours now and has another 1/2 hour to go....  Please pray for both of us in this time.  That God, in His grace, will help us to wait upon Him.  To lean on Him.  To rest in Him.  And while we wait, to see His blessings surrounding us, knowing that where we are right now in this journey is exactly where God wants us to be. 

Have a beautiful day.  May you find joy and rest in our Father!